and again;

i'm trying so very hard, but it seems that my energy is quite tired. is that okay? is that alright?
i just can't believe how very wasteful i have been.

it's really hard for me to sit still while everything else is moving; it's really hard for me to move while everything else is moving, ect. paradox. sometimes i think it's okay though, and it is, because i can still sleep, and that's really all anybody really needs to do. i don't know what to do anymore. i'm really tired. this entire thing is a lie. i can't sleep. sorry.


none of this has to do with anyone, it's all me. none of this matters, none of this has any matter. i don't care, but i do because i don't. oh well, this is for future reference on how not to be stupid. hurrah!




intractable.