I guess you just want to
Shave your head, have a drink, and be left alone
Is that too much to ask? "
i can feel it, you know. my brains circumference is too heavy, i'm sinking.
my minds worries are too troublesome, i'm sinking.
my lives too endearing, i'm sinking.
it's almost as if i won't let myself into the good ways, every time i'm going up-
i have to come down. 'don't want to defy gravity, now do we?'. logic isn't my middle name,
in fact it's far from my heritage, but i can feel my brains struggle towards accepting happiness.
maybe not accepting, but befriending. i'm too much a chronic, it says. it wants nothing of normalcy,
so i'm stuck being dragged from up to down. turn around, around, around.
i want to be alright, almost- but that little part that wants to stay
separate just won't untie it's connection.
i must say, it saddens me too.But what makes really really sad, is to see someone with such deep words.I mean, your words carry so much feelings, something like a confession, a hard one.Maybe the hardest of all.
ReplyDeleteAnd, know why it saddens me? 'Cause I've been there too.I walked those roads once.It saddens me 'cause i remember how it's like.
You said "i can feel my brains struggle towards accepting happiness", and i know what it means for real.
And, now, I really would like to know, as a friend of this "written world", how are you today? (:
This simple question, is something that we should ask everyone, anytime.
I know though it's not a easy answer, but i really would like to know.If you'd like to tell me.Maybe we can change a bunch of words that may help, or just, distract and buy us some time (:.
Take care! Hope you be better from the "sad" part of your brain.
(sorry bout the bad english, i'm learning this language now :/ )
Glad you're better now.Really.Trully (?) Don't know how you guys say...when you really mean it.
ReplyDeleteMe? Ah...don't know exactly.Sometimes something get over me, like a feeling that I'm on a cage and there's nothing I can do to get out once and for all.
This sensation kills me inside.But despite that, i guess that I'm ok.
There's a will in me, to see the world.To talk with different people you know? To talk/write with you guys, from other peaces of this giant world, is something that makes me happy.
But there'snt much people who wants to talk back, ya know? haha. It's sad.
Anyway, I took seriously your word, when you said that the world is in a stopping-point.I guess that we're about to another step in evolution, maybe.There's no way that this situation will continue just like this.Maybe the word "evolution" is too strong, but there's a change coming over and over, getting closer.At least, I hope so for a good change.
i have the exact same feeling.
ReplyDeletewhen things are going well, i get anxious, knowing something bad must happen soon. and, when it does, i spiral downward and dont want to come back up.
Thanks for what you wrote on my blog, it means a lot to me for some reason. =)
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