i can't keep doing this.
always jet lagged- or feeling fine then instantly down.
a bit of bad news goes too far, a bit of disappointment brings all of me to a halt.
what am i made of mostly but of petulance? a spoiled girl who won't take no for an answer.
i can't keep this to them, to you.
everyday a new experience with the same old expressions.
every night the same old salt concoctions just to make yourself sleep.
i went through it all; and here i am back again.
it's frustrating, but i'm finally bleeding out my fucking vagina so maybe i'll start to feel
a little weight shrugged off.
trying to feel better after the words are said- but you can't expect much when
you 'milk the cow for all its worth', but i'm ignorant. i'm so naive. i can't stop misbehaving.
i want to feel every light, be near your every sight- but where am i to go? when theres no more room to grow?
i can't stop feeling out of breathe, the distance is so far;
the floor is swept. i want to be okay. but where else can i lay? but in your arms.
and your so sorry, for all i've said. just because, i can't get to bed.
and i want to lay and sleep- but all i can do is weep.
oh, pity.
i don't get the flavor of the month- the herb smell off your clothes for once.
people singing back forth, swaying like they aren't around. i'm really happy about your smiling frown-
but those red eyes of yours, just bring me down.
i've distanced myself so far- the smell almost like tar. rhyming is so weak and flexible- but
people are just delectable.
i'm tired of being so incredibly mortal.
These words so full of sadness in every spaces they left for me to breath while I read.
ReplyDeleteIt`s so sad.And this is a point where I get worried about.
Even me, not knowing you acctually, I get a bit worried.You seem so unhappy, so tired of feeling this way.
You say that you only feel ok in the arms of your lover.Please, try to not see things this way.I felt this way before, and only after a long long time I saw.I saw that what I felt in her arms were not happiness at all, but her arms was just somewhere that I could flee from my own mind.And for me, I think that i was only running away from what I needed to face.What I had to face so I could be in peace with my own heart!
I dunnot know if its like your situation, I`m just telling you what I`ve been.
"I`m tired of being so incredibly mortal" i`ll carry these words.`Cause for them I`ve lost, and still do, so much of my days.
Take care.Please let me know, if there`s something I can do.
sorry, my english`s very bad.
ReplyDeletewhat did you mean with "did you right that?"?
don`t understand ):
sorry again, it`s my fault.