our bodys naked and vulnerable to one another moving about on
your green sheets; your mouth always near mine, hands always on me- my voice carrying to
the next room-\
you're beautiful, and this is always when i realize i will never be satisfied with how i make you feel.
and this is when i realize you will always deserve so much more than the tiny amount of comfort,
satisfaction, love- that i can produce in my entire system of a brain.
i love you, so very much- and it makes me cry.
i want to be so much more than i am, for you.
i want to be so much more beautiful than i am, for you.
i want to be so much more creative than i am, for you.
i want to be so much more gracious than i am, for you.
i want to be so much more selfless than i am, for you.
i want to be so much better than i can amount to, for you.
but you don't mind if i'm dumb or deaf or ugly. you don't mind at all.
because you're all of the things i'm not, and i don't know if that's good or bad;
but i know it's beautiful.
i want to reread it's kind of a funny story.
I wish i can hear these kinda words some day.Guess...this is a point, where every guy stop and start to think "Maybe it's true.Maybe I'm really and trully happy".
ReplyDeleteSo beaultiful.And so much more than this.
At the same time.But also hides a little bunch of sadness and maybe regreats between the lines, right? :/ A kind of fear, to not be enough.Or maybe a regreat, of a illusion that we could always be more.But...in the end, what is more? another illusion I hope so.
But hey, sorry I could not understand what you wrote.Yeah, that song I created that one day.It's kinda poor.Hope i can do better next time.
Hey, feeling okay now? (:
yeah? well good news than...
ReplyDeleteI guess that today i was...kinda down.You know? Like we say 'round here, "um dia tenso" means something like "heavy day".
But now...i guess that I'm better.
Hey, it's getting really hard to acess my blog.Mind if we xchange(don't really know how to write this) some e-mail? it'd be awesome.I hope so at least.
please...my mail's m.drop@hotmail.com
if you could i mean.
So...see yah! take care (: glad to know you're ok.