grand central station~

i feel good today, how about you?
everything is moving around in very predictable circles,
people are more important to me than i should have allowed.
it's okay though, this is how i'm happiest.

i don't know what i'm doing. i don't know where i'm going.
i wish i could live passed all my shit fucked doubts and just believe that maybe there is some sort of love awaiting at the end of myself. that maybe life isn't just about living, but loving too. it's not even that i don't believe that now, just that i don't always see the reasoning behind it. it's so hard though, not to tell you. i know it's not completely true, but my god do i want it.
i'm incredibly scared that this is going to turn out badly, but i'm too far hidden to reveal myself now.